On a completely unrelated thought...(than yours I mean.)..

I read someone else's letters the other day.

The end of one said...

'P.S. I love you.'

I found a piece of paper on the ground last year and on one side it said...

'To:

Marshall B.'

Below it, encircled in a heart... 'Remember Me.'

The other side...

'let's Dance'

I read someone else's journal the other day...

'I'm not happy, and nobody knows. I'm not happy, and nobody notices. I'm not happy, and the thought of you is the only thing that calms me. I'm not happy, and you are dead.'

I read somebody else's hand today...

'a swirl, and a curl, and a dot, and a rose, and BUTTER.'

I read somebody's face today...

':PAIN:SMILE:FEAR:LOVE:silence...'

I saw the moon last night, right in my window, at three-thirty in the morning...as usual...

'My goodness doesn't that look beautiful? I miss you, you know? (smile)'

I looked into your eyes today...

this is what I saw...'care'

I listened to you today... and I told you...

'I forgave you... a while ago, if that matters...'




She picked up the musicbox, began twisting the knob....She heard nothing.

She heard...NOTHING.

Potential.

"Baby you've got the Sort Of hands to rip me apart. And baby you've got the sort of face to start this old heart. But your eyes are warning me this early morning. That my love's too big for you my love. Baby you've got the sort of laugh that waters me. And makes me grow tall and strong and proud and flattens me. I find you stunning, but you are running me down. My love's too big for you my love. My love's too big for you my love. And if I was stronger then I would tell you no. And if I was stronger then I will leave this show. And if I was stronger then I would up and go. But here I am and here we go again. Baby you've got the sort of eyes that tell me tales. That your sort of mouth just will not say, the truth impales. That you don't need me, but you won't leave me. My love's too big for you my love. My love's too big for you my love. And if I was stronger then I would tell you no. And if I was stronger then I will leave this show. And if I was stronger then I would up and go.But here I am and here we go again.Tell me what to do to take away the you?And if I was stronger then I would tell you no. And if I was stronger then I will leave this show.And if I was stronger then I would up and go. But here I am and here we go again..."

I believe in something. And I'm pretty sure, that that's exactly what the problem is.

It's as if you're dead. Well, not completely dead. It's like, you have just been declared as one among the
MISSING PERSONS.
The search team has began grouping together to find your precious body. Alive, or dead.
I'll be there.
Don't you worry.
I'll make sure I get to see your smile one last night.

The idea of you being dead...dislike.

Directions: BREATHE. BREATHE. breathe.

I promise you it won't be difficult. For most people, it's something subconcious. I trust you have the strength for it.

Make those red eyes turn white. As white as...that cloud, right.....THERE.

It's innocent, yes (I know), but don't deny that you understand.

i forgot to mention...

oh. the hair on my head...it was really long.

(You may not believe me, but it was nice to see your face.

I can see your pain...

No matter what.

take it in, sir, take it in.)

365...about that.

1. We were inseparable. 2. We went to Whole Foods for the first time. 3. I saw you about 11 o'clock every night. At my front doorstep. 4. I was in a Circus. 5. We listened to Aristocats together. 6. You swam a lot. 7. You brought me flowers. 8. I made you pancakes. 9. You made my brother eggs. 10. We started writing our deepest thoughts to each other. 11. We were best friends. 12. We were best friends. 13. We were best friends. 14. We were best friends. 15. I lied in the bed of your truck. 16. You drew on my sidewalk in CHALK. 17. We hardly knew each other. 18. You were just a 'school friend.' 19. You told me I looked nice. 20. I didn't even speak to you. 21. I knew that I loved you. 22. We watched the Jungle Book. 23. You constantly came to say 'hi.' 24. I danced, only a little bit. 25. I was a princess. 26. I saw a UFO. 27. You kissed me. 28. Beach. 29. My favorite ring broke. 30. I wore a brown wig. 31. I was still lopsided. 32. I still ate peanut-butter and jelly sandwiches everyday. 33. I cried in your arms. 34. You took me to buy false eye-eyelashes. 35. The three of us got really lost. 36. You didn't kiss me. 37. I had NO clue that the days were going to feel like suffocation.


...Will you please just pick up your fucking head? I'm tired of seeing it slip. and slip. and slip. and slip. and slip. and slip. IT'S DRIVING ME INSANE.

...So is the Celtic Christmas music.

Goodnight.

light mare.

Tick, Tick, Tick.

I was stopped at the stop light. The early morning innocence lifted my lips and craved my smile.

"What are you doing!?" She laughed.

"Smiling..."

"NOOOOOOO....why!?" There was an overwhelming excitment inside her.

"I'm happy for you..." I was smiling.

I looked at sky that was turning brighter by the second. I saw the ordinary homeless man, with gray dreads and his shopping cart, slowly hobble in front of us making his way down, down, down...

I was smiling.

Tick, Tick, Tick.

There was silence for a while. All you could hear was the green arrow blinking from within the digital dashboard.

"What are you smiling about!?" Still...Excited.

"I told you, I'm just really happy for you."

The one without the wheel smiled a cute smile.

The light turned green. "Go GO GO!!"

ZOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM.

She wrote...The thought of biting my ear does still make me die inside. But, I don't want die anymore. I don't want to kill myself. That's why I am filled with pen's and paper. I fill myself with them in order to remember the innocence of my smile. I love my smile. I love smiling.

Get used to it, Sir.

I'm ready to let loose.

When I look at the clock...

I see these times...

7:11

11:22


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