month.

1. nobody cares. stop telling us.

2. I'm terrified. Pretty soon, goodbye won't be just for a few long hours, and days. And short weeks.

3. Pretty soon goodbye will really mean.......exactly that.

4. Holy shit.

5. I know what it's like now...to be loved in misunderstandings. To be loved in chaos. To be loved in the future.

6. I know what it's like to be loved in the future.

7. I'm terrified.

8. Miss.

9. Letters.

10. Cookies.

...Goodnight for now. sleep tight, for now.

I SAID GOODNIGHT.

I dunno man,

I still think it'll all be okay.

Everything is going to BE OKAY.

HA!

It's nice. Really fuckin nice.

I miss eating ice cream.

ya know, for a while...I was stuck there.

But today. I felt myself grow-up some more.

And all I had to do was run.

explanation.

I must be a Monster.

RAWR!

Calm down.

how many is it again?

We are taught at a young age to cover up what we are actually feeling.

You want a lollipop...your mom says no...so you cry. And immediately she says, 'SHHHHH!'

You aren't allowed to let people know that you are upset at the fact that don't get to taste that red lollipop.

You stub your toe, but you aren't allowed to just yell 'FUCK!' and get away with it.

--Socially, unacceptable.

From those days onward...nothing is really true. No one says it. No one means it. No one does it.

Paranoia? Maybe. I wish I knew what I needed help with.

I wish I could say I was always honest. I try to be, and sometimes it works out and sometimes...well it just doesn't.

But please, don't be a hypocrite thinking that you are some noble leader of your kind.

Maybe it is your fault. After all... and eye for an eye don't you think?

Or, maybe, it's just an eye-lash...hell I can't remember.

I guess, my point is.......I want to cry when I don't get to suck on a red lollipop.

..........yeah.

That's all I want.

To do...

1. Grow the Fuck Up.

2. Be more attractive.

3. Climb a tree.

All equally do-able and exciting.

(this isn't for me ya know...well, entirely.)

blastoff!

I love how easy it is to say those three words.

Actually, it's easy to say a lot of three words.

Three words.

HA, HA, HA.

Degrating? Yeah. But it won't stop me. That's what this is about, right?

... I

Don't

Care...

I do though. I care about a lot of you. For lovely reasons.

This happiness didn't just shit out of my ass.

ew.

:)

wait.

p.s.

I really miss being alone.

.

that's just it though. if i wait. I am giving into myself.

something else... I have to teach you something.

SOMETHING.ANYTHING.SOMETHING.

my finger is bleeding...

I'll wait.

I have memories of things that never happened.

They feel like...a REAL dream. A dream that's real.

I wonder what happened in my past life (lives).

Patience is all...

the night is young(er).

I know it's early...

but I promise you, we are going to do bigger and better things than we hardly can imagine...

ellipse's exist for a reason.

explanation=ellipse's.

ah well...:)!

{p.s. how frickin adorable is that picture?}

it's all for the sole reason that it's easy to blame it on someone else.

it's true.

so true.

Time Stopped Today...(iwish).

Ya know, I never knew that keeping secrets would keep refilling my water jug.

Hiding behind my own pointer finger hasn't seemed to have worked thus far...so maybe I'll use my whole hand.

Failure? No, I don't think that's where I'm going.

Just a hybernation...in order to prove to MYSELF that I am worth my own time.
And so that I don't have to look at that pathetic smile knowing that within your teeth is a build up of dark black plaque waiting...just Waiting to let loose and splatter my face.

I haven't always been like this...

(the sad part is...is that i know this is
exactly what you wanted to happen)