river.

1. i'm in love. it's absolutely amazing :)

2. not a product. i'm not. so, i will decide not to be.

3. someone else cares more than you.

4. darling. just because I said it, doesn't mean it's the best. use your own words...it's a little weird.

5. new hands.

6. it really could not have been any better.

7. kisses on the cheek are better than...(almost) ANYTHING and EVERYTHING.

...

1. I don't bite my lip anymore.
2. my legs aren't that gross.
3. I still am big(ger).
4. My fingers still peel.
5. My hair is back to natural (almost).
6. I still have my pony tail from over a year ago.
7. I'm growing my hair out.
8. I remember that smile SO well.
9. I knew you wouldn't call.
10. We were friends.
11. I don't draw footprints.
12. I don't really write.

Maybe.

Dead Dead Dead Dead Dead Dead Dead Dead Dead Dead Dead Dead Dead Dead Dead Dead Dead Dead DEAD. Deadeaedeadeadeadeadeadeadeadedaedeadeadeadeadeadeadedaedeadeadeadedadeadeadeadeadedadead.

dead. dead. dead. dead.

DEAD.

It's the only way for me to just blank out. I see everything else, except that.

So...DEAD.

I dunno. I guess it makes sense.

I had something to say.

I really did, I came here to say something specific, and now I can't remember.

You wanna know what gets me more excited than it probably should?

Buying then WAITING to use new toiletries.

It's SO frickin exciting.

I wish my Chai Latte lasted longer.

I wish you didn't cease to dissapoint me...then again, it's nice to know that I have NO fear.

Thank you for showing me how to be fearles...no, not thank you. BLESS you.

I will not throw away another unnecessary 'thank you.'